Fruit Punch Diary

You must be saying that I give up on my writing! Well it’s something that’s a part of me so I can never stop writing.

One of the things that keeps me going is, the advice it gives me. Sounds strange doesnt’t it? How can something that I do to help others, helps me out also?

Have you ever realized that when a friend is stuck in a situation, you know just the right thing to help them out, or to give them a jump start as in what’s the next step? But then after a while you find yourself in a similar situation and it’s like the whole world is falling on your shoulders because you have no idea what to do!

We have this natural habit that when we are down, or confused or just need guidance we seek in others. But many times we know how to get through it, especially if we’ve been through them before, yet we prefer the insurance that we have people there for us to back up our decision.

In my case I try my best not always look into others when I need a answer, but I look within myself. For most of the time we already know the answer without even asking the question. So when I write on my blog, it gives me inspiration. It’s a feeling I can’t really bring forward but it’s a great feeling.

Like when I came back to Curacao. I was full of tears and just wanted to stop school and go back home. But when I came on my site and started to write on my blog, the tears slowly dried up and I felt a little better. And now I no longer cry.

Hoping that my articles inspires you, it has that affect on me. Like I am reading someone else’s work

Well starting Monday I will have Job training for six weeks at a play school. And it’s a lot of assignments I have to do, so it will be kind of hectic for me to post daily articles, but I won’t stay away for the whole six weeks, do don’t be so sad

I have already typed out my plan, as in what I’m going to accomplish in six weeks. Now is up to me to work it out and give it my all when I’m in the field.

I have like 32 assignments to get done in 28 days. Seems easy, but trust me it is not. So I will be busy all this weekend planning deeper into how exactly I’m going to work with my plan and the plans that the place has for me.

Wish me luck!

How many of you have been heart broken or lost a friend through lack of communication or what ever the cause may be? How many times have you held on to empty promises? And how many times have you walked backwards into the past?

Well today, at this very moment it’s time we learn to let go. Stop looking in places that leaves you feeling guilty and time to live life. And I really mean live it!

If you know about acceptance, then you will easily fall in place with the term letting go. Letting go of a broken relationship or a shaky friendship that seems to not be working out, doesn’t necessarily mean to throw everything away and give up. What it really means it that you have accepted the fact that things are no longer how they use to be, and that you should move on.

Now I’m not saying that is the first thing you have to do when things go south. For if you really want things to work out, or you find that the friendship is worth fighting for, then you have my vote to go for it. But after a length of time when you find yourself alone in this battle, take my advice and just “let go”.

Moving forward also shows a sign of strength. I know how it feels to love someone deeply and to always want them around, but most of the things that we think are meant to be, just aren’t. It’s just a test so that we could at least say we had this special feeling for someone, or had a great bond with a friend.

So what I’m really trying to say is that letting go isn’t a bad thing. When you loose one thing, you gain another. You may feel that you lost a whole lot because you and this person had so many memories together, but you haven’t lost a thing. In life you will always gain something one way or another. You mostly gain experience, and that a fact. All the things that you are going through is a learning experience.

But one thing you have to look out for while letting go, is regret. Many of us let go of a situation and then turn right back around and hold back on. Then you don’t know what you really want. It’s going to be hard, but it takes commitment and self belief. And I am sure you can do it!

July has come and gone. August is back in progress, so time to cherish the good times I had and work towards my goals. The vacation was sweet no doubt about that, had some ups and downs but I am living without regrets.

Once again, I am home sick and wish I didn’t go away to study. But what did I say? “I am living without regrets”, so in due time I will be back on track. All this is a part of going away to study, where you come back home and everything is just like it use to be, but then you have to leave again. And the more you come and go, is the more it hurts. Because you keep meeting new people who begin to be a part of you

I can tell you it’s not easy, and as I am in tears while writing this article it is worth it. We made the choice to want better in life, so we have to understand that we can’t always be where we want to be, when we want too. It will all pay off. Your family will always be there when you are through with your studies. And as for the love ones, if they really love and care for you, they will encourage you to don’t quit and that when you get back your space will be right there waiting for you to fit in.

This is my second year, I passed the first year with flying colors. And this year; I am willing to do much much better. My goal is to finish in the next three years with my diploma in my hand and then to move up higher*, my theme for this school year “Less Talk, More Action“, and I’m going to do that all on a fresh start.

Last year was mines and I used it to shine, and this year is mines for the taken again, where I’m going to bloom it out.

All the best to you for the school year. “Work smarter, not Harder”

Growing up (especially being a girl) you will be given a lot of opportunities. You will get a lot of promises from a lot of people you think you can trust.

You will get tricked by your parents who will tell you for example if you get all good grades you will get a raise allowance, from boys who tell you, if you be their girl they promise to never hurt you, from friends who promise to always be there for you…and the list of lies just continues and never stop.

There are few people that keep their word. And the only way to believe someone who promises you something, is to not believe it at all.

I’ve been promised a lot of things in my child hood, and if I didn’t wish to better myself, I would still be waiting for these promises to come through. Life isn’t a fairy tale, so I won’t be waiting for my prince to come along on a white horse and sweep me off my meet. I am living for me, and moving forward to make the little happiness I have right now bigger and stronger. What I am to be, I am now becoming. If it is to be, it is up to me.

Don’t think that I never believe in promises. I did, and I also make some to other people. But promises are for fools, and I don’t see no one as one, and wouldn’t want to take no one as one either. So is either I give you my word that I will get things done or I will do my best.

It’s time to realize, that depending on your happiness and goals from others will just make you a weak and lazy person. And I know that a lot of people are confused and dazzled at my new approach on things. But it’s time I live my life the way I want without the strings of others.

Time I grow up, and let this little girl just be memories to look back into.

Don’t be afraid to change things around to fit your needs! If your friends leave you because there is change, then they were never a true friend.

Finally the school year is over, but for how long? We only have six weeks to relax.
So give yourself a pat on the back and enjoy your vacation, because by time you know it you’re back in the books again.

For those that graduated, went to another grade and finished school; congratulations! Take me seriously when I say, I’m one of those people who are proud of you. I know how it feels when hard work pays off.

All those late hours staying up, all those last minute assignments, all those time staying home instead of partying with your friends, I know all about it.

This was my first year studying abroad, and it went better than how I told myself it would be. I got everything I wanted this year, and that was to go over to the second year with nice grades! This year wasn’t easy, but I would be lying if I said it was difficult. Let’s just say it was challenging.

Looking forward to next year, but not so soon. I really need a vacation that seems long even though we know it’s very short . But when you have a goal in mind, you don’t want to delay it. The faster you get at it, the sooner you will be able to grab it.

Enjoy your summer vacation everyone!

It has been said that a lot things play a role in your life while growing up. Meaning to say how you was brought up, but I think it has more to how you parents raised you. What also plays a role is what you see on a daily bases or from time to time. How the people around you react.

When growing up, one of the things that all children are good at, is copying. What they see the people around them doing, they will surely start to act that way also, because to them it’s normal. And from there is when we start to create our own morals and values.

Now our parents of course are there to show us right from wrong. Their actions is the most important examples that we are suppose to fall into. But now if your parents actions aren’t the right ones? Now if your parents are totally full of negativity? Will you still want to follow in their foot steps or will you create your own? How will you know that your parents actions aren’t the right ones?

To understand a bit more about what my title means and what I’m trying to bring across to you, I will give you an example.

Sit back and draw this picture with me. You’re living with your mom and dad. They have been married for a while, before you were even born. Now by the age of five all you see is them fighting, and I don’t mean only verbally but also physically. Every day it’s the same thing and it just gets worse. They don’t worry with you and that starts to show in your grades at school.

After five years they’ve decided to have a divorce because things have no way of turning around and being how it once was. You stay and live with your mother and visit your father on weekends or when you have holidays.

Now things get better because there is no more fighting in the house, you can finally concentrate and your mom is there for you more then ever. But after a few months things have a way of changing, and this time for the worse. Your mom has a different guy at home every other night that she calls her friends, but you must respect them and do as they say when they say. All her attention goes into her “friends” and she acts as though you don’t exist. Now this is kind of confusing for you but you do as mother says.

Now when you’re over at your dads house things are kind of different. Your dad has a girlfriend who seem very nice, the three of you go out to dinner and for ice cream. Sometimes the both of you stay at home together when dad has to work late. She told you that you can call her anytime and she will be there for you. You’re like a daughter to her, and your dad seems more happy being with this lady then how he was with your mom.

Living those lives is very difficult for you and you don’t know which parent you should follow.

Years go by and now you’re sixteen. You have your first boyfriend, now you don’t know what to do. You don’t even know what’s a relationship. How should it feel? Should you be like your mother and have different boyfriends, or should you follow your father and have only one? Should you take things slow, or should you rush into things are tell him you love him and marry him?

You can’t answer all those questions on your first relationship, but you should know that a relationship is between two people and not the whole world. Where you have full communication and respect with the person that you are with. There has to be trust and commitment. And not forgetting understanding. Someone you really like and would like to have a future with. All these things has to be added together with your relationship if you want it to last a lifetime.

If you’re not the relationship type, then I can’t help you in that field but you won’t get no where far.

But most kids don’t know what love is, or what having a boyfriend/girlfriend really means. They think it’s all about sex, and that is one of the reasons a lot of young girls are pregnant today. They don’t know any better because they never got the right example while growing up.

How do we change this? We change it from the beginning. Show your children love so they wouldn’t have to look for it in some boy or girl. One day they will want to have a mate, but at least by then they will know why they’re doing it, by the right example from you.

Your kids are always watching you, more then you watch them. So being a serious parent by showing a right example for your kids is where it begins.